I would have been in France right now, but instead, I am sitting under the bamboo trees at our bungalow writing this blog. Curious about my why.
The last few weeks, I’d been biking a lot. Training for the Tour de France Femmes avec Zwift. And oh, I was loving it! Being on a training program. Pushing my mind and body. The grind!
And when my Retirement episode dropped, there felt like no better time to do an extra tough ride. I biked 55 miles through the Santa Monica mountains that day.
The day after the announcement, I unplugged. We’d planned a surf trip in Sanno, and it couldn’t have come at a better time. I wanted to be in the water.
When I’m in the ocean… I’m simply in the ocean. Everything else fades away. I feel similarly when I play football. And when I bike.
Life is funny, though. I set out to surf and be, and life (in the form of my long board) hit me in the head.
I kept trying to get back to my training. But the universe had other plans for me. Plans for me to not work out. Not use devices. Not go out to loud places. To simply sit in the wake of everything.
Is it a torture or is it a gift? Not being able to bike… surf… escape. Probably a bit of both. I started putting my phone in a drawer while at the house and I felt more like myself than I had in a long time. Spending time with me, myself, and my mind palace. And of course Bob.
I’m disappointed about not riding in the Tour de France Femmes avec Zwift. But don’t worry, I’ll be back next year. And for now, I’ll be under the bamboos.
Make sure you tune in to watch the Tour. It is absolutely amazing 🚲